the francesca has left for london. i feel so alone. within days she has become so very dear to me. as a friend, as a mentor, as my little nova scotia girl, and as a save haven in times of madness. to us girls, monochrom can be a hella hostile environment at times and together francesca and i managed to work out ways of dealing with that. i miss our comfy zones and our talks. which is why i made johannes reschedule our flights. we'll be home one week earlier so that we can celebrate christmas with francesca.
the jake has left, too. we had such a good time. i even enjoyed taking care of him when he was ill because it gave me the perfect pretext to skip the trip to linz and i didn't really wanna go anyway. he is such a darling. to make sure he will come back i took a hostage, his favorite camera! and this is not just jake somebody's camera, it's jake appelbaum's, the guy who can make MY nose disappear!



tonight the 'nestroy award' show will take place at the volkstheater. i'm still kind of bitter about the fact that they didn't actually give it to us but to the rabenhof theater who will get it for the maschek's 'television swindle', the play 'freundschaft' and for our musical 'udo77'. so maybe i should try my newly developped skills of killing emotions on negative feelings also and just get over it and have a good time. i still have to decide on what to wear, the dress or the suit. after all, it'll be on tv. any suggestions?